Transforming Toxic Shame
In the journey of self-discovery and trauma recovery, understanding the spectrum of shame is incredibly useful. Often perceived as a negative emotion, shame holds a dual nature.
Healthy shame can serve as our moral compass, guiding us back to our true north of love. It's a transient feeling that helps us align with personal and societal values, ensuring our actions are considerate and empathetic. However, when shame becomes 'toxic', it can seep into our core being, making us feel inherently flawed and unworthy.
“People who are shameless have no empathy and have no concern for other people. They just do whatever they feel like doing without worrying, “What will people think about me? Will people dislike me?” People without shame are dangerous. Shame is at the center of what Darwin talked about, 150 years ago – the center of higher emotions At the center of human structure are all of these good emotions – there are no bad emotions. All parts are welcome, and shame is there for a reason. We don’t say to people, “Don’t be ashamed.” We say, “Let’s go there. Let’s explore shame. Let’s feel shame. Let’s see what this shame is about.” Dr. Bessel van der Kolk
Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, a renowned psychiatrist and trauma expert, provides an insightful perspective on the role of shame in human emotional structure and behavior. His quote underscores the complexity of shame as an emotion and its function in the social fabric of humanity. Let's explore the key points from the quote:
The Role of Shame in Empathy and Social Concern: Van der Kolk suggests that the presence of shame is closely tied to our capacity for empathy and consideration of others. Shame acts as a social regulator, prompting us to reflect on how our actions may be perceived and the potential impact those actions could have on our relationships and social standing. When shame is absent, it can lead to a lack of empathy, where we may act without regard for the feelings or well-being of others.
The Dangers of a Lack of Shame: people who are "shameless" may pose a danger to society because they are not bound by the internal checks that shame provides. Without the mitigating effect of shame, people might engage in harmful, impulsive, or unethical behaviors without the internalized social constraints that would typically prevent such actions.
Shame and Evolutionary Psychology: Van der Kolk references Charles Darwin, suggesting that shame is not a new concept but one that has been central to human emotional evolution for over a century and a half. Darwin's work on emotions considered how they played a role in survival and social interaction. Shame, in this context, can be seen as an evolved response that helps maintain social cohesion and mutual cooperation.
The Acceptance of All Emotions: The quote emphasizes that all emotions have their place and purpose, including those that are often viewed negatively, such as shame. Van der Kolk's approach does not involve rejecting or suppressing shame but rather exploring and understanding it. By accepting and examining our feelings of shame, we can gain insights into our values, behaviors, and the social norms that shape us.
The Duality of Shame
Healthy Shame is about guidance, proportion, temporariness, constructiveness, and specificity. It's a response to our actions and behaviors that leads to personal growth, improved relationships, and learning.
Toxic Shame, on the other hand, is pervasive, disproportionate, persistent, destructive, and internalized. It's a chronic state that can lead to mental health issues, social withdrawal, addictive behaviors, and relationship problems. This form of shame is not about what we've done, but about who we believe we are at our core – and it's this belief that can be so damaging.
Not all experiences of shame are adaptive or healthy. There is a distinction between what might be considered "healthy" shame, which is the feeling that can guide us towards better behavior, and "toxic" shame, which can be damaging and counterproductive.
Here are the differences between the two:
Healthy Shame
Guidance: It acts as a moral compass, guiding us to align with social and personal values.
Proportionate: It is usually proportional to the situation; the intensity of the emotion matches the perceived social transgression.
Temporary: It is often a temporary feeling that subsides once the we address or makes amends for our behavior.
Constructive: It can lead to constructive outcomes, such as learning, personal growth, and improved social relationships.
Specific: It is often related to specific actions or behaviors rather than the core self.
Toxic Shame
Pervasive: Toxic shame is a deep-seated feeling of being inherently flawed or unworthy, rather than feeling bad about a specific behavior.
Disproportionate: The intensity is often out of proportion to the actual event or action that triggered it.
Persistent: It tends to linger and can become a chronic state that colors many aspects of a person's life, leading to a constant sense of worthlessness.
Destructive: Toxic shame can lead to harmful outcomes, such as low self-esteem, chronic self-doubt, and self-sabotage.
Internalized: Unlike healthy shame, which is about behavior, toxic shame becomes an integral part of one's identity.
The Impact of Toxic Shame
Living with toxic shame is like carrying an invisible burden that weighs heavily on your soul. It can manifest in depression, anxiety, loneliness, and a myriad of behaviors that disconnect us from our essence and from each other. Some of the profound negative effects of toxic shame on mental health and relationships:
Decreased Mental Health: Toxic shame is often associated with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders. It can erode a person's self-esteem and lead to a negative self-concept.
Social Withdrawal: People suffering from toxic shame may withdraw from social interactions to avoid potential judgment or further shame, leading to isolation and loneliness.
Addictive Behaviors: In an attempt to cope with the pain of toxic shame, we may turn to substance abuse or other addictive behaviors.
Disconnection and Isolation: Toxic shame can make it difficult for us to form healthy, intimate relationships, as we may feel unworthy of love and connection.
Healing from Toxic Shame
Healing requires us to understand the origins of our shame, develop self-compassion, challenge negative self-beliefs, and build resilience. Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, a leading expert in trauma, encourages us to explore shame, not to turn away from it. In doing so, we can transform our pain into a catalyst for positive change.
Somatic Self-Love Ritual: Composting Toxic Shame with Mother Earth
Try this somatic self-love ritual to help compost toxic shame and reconnect with your innate worthiness. This ritual draws on the grounding energy of Mother Earth to transmute toxic shame into a source of growth and renewal.
Preparation:
Find a quiet space outdoors where you can sit undisturbed, preferably in nature.
Bring a small biodegradable object to symbolize your toxic shame (e.g., a leaf, a piece of paper with your feelings written on it).
The Ritual:
Grounding: Sit or stand barefoot on the earth. Feel the support beneath you. Take deep, slow breaths, inhaling the earth's energy and exhaling your tension.
Acknowledgment: Hold the object in your hands. Close your eyes and acknowledge the feelings of toxic shame. Speak them silently or aloud, recognizing their presence without judgment.
Release: Dig a small hole in the earth with your hands, a symbol of your willingness to let go. Place the object inside as a physical representation of your toxic shame.
Composting: Cover the object with soil, imagining that as it decomposes, so too does your toxic shame. Envision the earth transforming your shame into nutrients, just as it does with organic matter.
Growth: Imagine a seed in the place of your buried shame. With each breath, picture it sprouting roots and shoots, growing stronger and more vibrant. This seed represents your healing, nourished by the composting of your old pain.
Gratitude: Thank Mother Earth for her healing power. Acknowledge your own courage for engaging in this process of transformation.
Reconnection: Stand up slowly, feeling a renewed sense of connection with yourself and the world around you. Carry this sensation of grounding and growth with you.
Closing the Ritual:
Take a few moments to journal about your experience or simply sit in reflection.
When you're ready, return to your day with a sense of release and openness.
In Conclusion
Shame may be an intrinsic part of our emotional toolkit, but it doesn't have to govern our lives. By engaging in rituals like this and seeking therapeutic support when needed, we can compost our toxic shame and cultivate a garden of self-love and acceptance. Remember, in the rich soil of self-compassion, the most beautiful parts of us can flourish.
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